Waiting for An Empty Hope

Peeking through the window and hoping somehow you suddenly could appear from somewhere in front of nowhere just to meet up. Hoping that you would go back and waiting for you to be back even you have gone away after a fight. Hoping that someday you would understand that sometimes a 'NO' means 'Show me more willingness for that'. Checking out the blog that you made, and hoping that somehow it is updated and you write about the love you have for me.
And everytime I turn back, I hope that you would be just behind me, because you would never leave me, but you leave. Everytime we have a fight, I hope you would chase me, but you leave. I hope you would just surprise me by bringing things I like even when I say 'NO', but you don't. And everytime you still have an opportunity to fix things before the time goes, I hope you would make it up, but you don't and you just give up.
Finally, I realize that I have been waiting for an empty hope. You will never understand. Even somehow I still wish that it were all wrong, but unfortunately it's all true.

Decide NOW!

As the time is going, the wheel is turning, a foot can't stop taking steps. Life won't stop even when you pause to take a step. There is always a risk in deciding what to do when the clock is still ticking. There is a risk and taking a step forward, there is a risk in taking a step back, and also there is a risk when you even stop taking a step for a while. Whatever the risk is, you need to decide what to do in your life.

Deciding equals 50% possibility to the safe part and 50% possibility to the unsafe one. To increase the percentage of possibility to the safe part, we need to go through a long process in understanding the environment. We need to recognize and understand where we live, what kind of place that is, who the people around are, what type of people they are, what things are there around us, and so on and so on, as many information as we can get. That long process doesn't need the formal research, only being sensitive with what's going on around.

Until then, you can predict more about what will happen if you do this, what will happen if you do that. What risk will you get, what chance you will have, and so on. And ta-daaaa, you can decide what to do now!

Simple theory!

Have fun with your life, folks!

Get in Life and Live in It!

Life exists to let us see the existence of love and let us be the part of it

When life drags you to the hard time, just give it a SMILE.

If you can't define life, you can't move forward to one door out of 100 doors in front of you.

 Life doesn't start once you breath, it starts right at the second you realize that you are ALIVE.

 Nothing and no one can give you a life, but yourself.

Happiness :)

No matter how many seasons we have, no matter what good weather is, where I was born, who my family is, who my friends are, well happiness is always around, and I’ve got reasons to be happy.

            I don’t need to choose one best season, one best place for vacation, one person to make me smile, nor to choose one reason to make me happy. I decided to be happy in any situations, places, with anyone, in anytime, because I deserve happiness!

            Happiness is there for those who want to be happy. Sometimes when things don’t go the way we want, people most likely get disappointed. And once that thing happens to me, I always try to think or to feel another blessings, another good things that I have, which I should be grateful for, and yes, there it is, that is how I earn my happiness. The disappointment isn’t easily fading away, but I won’t think much about that when I’m happy.

Love isn’t really the theme I like to write, it’s just a feeling I like to have. But as I’ve just jumped to the age of 20s, so I started thinking about the real relationship, the real feeling to have, the real man to face life together.

I always think that a word ‘LOVE’ is sacred. It can’t be mentioned to everyone. But the truth is, that sacred word is often mentioned, mostly woman-to-woman, which I also do. Because that’s been happening in my life, so I decided to keep that word away when I really feel that way to a man. Simply, when I mention that word a lot to a man, it doesn’t mean what that word really means, on the contrary, when I rarely mention the ‘L’ word, it means that once I mention it, I really do mean it.

For more than 20 years I’ve been breathing, seeing people bump around, hearing good and bad things, but I only have ever fallen in love ONCE! The feeling had been there for like about 3 years, but the relationship ended up after 3 weeks being together. Since then, I’m kinda afraid of falling in love. Being suspicious is who I am now. It’s like, I don’t believe any men who would possibly be really in love with me like I am to one of them. Sounds desperate, huh? But I’m not.

But I also admit that I lost 3 puzzles in life. One is faith. And the others are to love and being loved. I know that those puzzles are there, I just need time to seek them to complete my life.

The Voice of The (H)eart(h)

Like you want me to keep you safe under the roof, with enough food and tools to live, I also want you to watch me, to understand what I need.

But you are there to complete my needs. I need to live happily and instantly, so I need you to complete my robots, factories, and all technologies that can support what I do.

We all have got limitation, that’s why you and I exist, we are supposed to support each other, we need each other. You can’t ask me to support you endlessly, when you don’t support my life.

So how can I complete my needs?! Every single little thing that sticks to my life is consisted by you. What I wear, what I eat, drink, and everything can affect your life. I’m sorry but I need it to continue my life.

That’s why I exist, to help you complete your life. But when the effect happens to my life, sorry to say, but it will affect your life too. When I don’t have trees, water, your life will be as miserable as I am. You won’t have good air to breath, clear water to consume, you won’t even live in a good weather. In the end, you are dying with the unhealthy life and circumstances.

Pick the way of your life! Choose the one that you think will be good for you today and the future, you don’t live only for a day, but for a long time, and you don’t live alone, but you’ve got friends and families that you should think about. You decide...

GAME is how I call my life. Winning means losing for a hundred of times and stand still for the 101st

_C.

'P' for Peace from Perception

As I am currently a student who takes Communication Science, I understand perception well enough. Perception is a thought that we have based on our own background (family background, last experiences, social background, belief, etc). Every thought that we have, to be exact it comes from our background.

I exist in this beautiful earth not just to become a student, but I also concern about global issues. Peace and wars have been one of the big issues in the world. I was wondering what is behind all these wars. And once, I think I could understand what makes wars in this world.

We were created with differences and diversities. They are absolutely beautiful when you see from the right sight. From those differences and diversities, we can fill each other. But unfortunately, the fact is the difference perceptions create wars. Then what can we do? we-can't-do-anything action is really worse action for me. Billions of people or even uncountable people should be handled. Can you believe that we can do that? But the answer is 'YES'! Yes, we can do it, people!!! POWER-OF-WORDS works!

When one to another talk about peace, talk about understanding between diversities, and accepting those differences, and then another will talk to the others, it will work! We also have got opinion leaders in each communities. The opinion leaders can take the lead to the peace.

We have social network that actually we can use. When we spread the good news, then the result will be good. People say that bad news is a good news. But who cares when all the stations shows good news, everyone will keep watching and listening.

Be united in saving the world. We share the same ocean, we live in the same land (just separated by the distance), the earth is ours, the people are friends, what is the reason for us to fight?

PEACE yo! :)

Dreams Aren't Just Dreams

I'm wondering if I could be like what I always dream to be. Sometimes I think I'd better to live in a dream, I can picture myself as anyone I want to be, picture myself in anywhere I want to be. But I hate when the dreams come to the end and I should wake up to face the real life.

If only I had got wings, I would ask you to fly with me.
If only I were the president, I would feed you well.
If only I were a life teacher, I wouldn't give you a hard exam without guiding you.

Many ideas seem so impossible, but 'nothing is impossible' is true, I just can make those ideas come true (at least in my dreams). What's the point of having an obsession? I guess the answers are only two; to feel happiness of achieving the desire or just to show off. If the first is the answer, then we just need a nice bed to sleep and have a nice dream, because we can feel it in our dreams. Problems SOLVED!
LMAO

Contrary

Sebagai seorang mahasiswi, saya memang bukan seperti mahasiswi pada umumnya (terutama mahasiswi yang memilih fakultas ilmu yang sebenarnya: Biologi, Kimia, Fisika, dan kawan-kawannya), karena keseharian saya bukan belajar, tapi lebih dengan memperhatikan tingkah laku orang sekitar, mencoba mengerti apa yang dirasakan seseorang jika diperlakukan seperti A, B, C, dan seterusnya. Oh iya, saya adalah mahasiswi Fakultas Ilmu Komunikasi yang berkosentrasi pada PR (Public Relation). Maka dari itu, saya lebih memperhatikan bagaimana komunikasi yang berlangsung disekitar saya, daripada membaca buku dan menghafal teori Bapak dan Ibu A-Z.

Suatu hari saat saya sedang dalam perjalanan pulang bersama keluarga saya dari salah satu pusat perbelanjaan di Jakarta, kami terjebak kemacetan kota Jakarta yang telah menjadi rahasia umum (rahasia tapi kok umum?!). Beberapa menit kami berbincang dalam perjalanan tersebut, kami bercerita satu sama lain, dan lama kelamaan kami pun merasa lelah dimakan waktu. Beberapa kali saya memperhatikan jalanan, dan satu ketika saya baru sadar bahwa selama ini mobil-mobil besar dan mahal seperti Alphard, Serena, Fortuner, mereka semua diduduki oleh SATU orang sopir yang akan menjemput tuannya yang juga hanya berjumlah SATU orang, sedangkan motor-motor bebek dijalanan berlalu lalang dengan membawa 2, 3, bahkan terkadang 4 orang diatasnya. Miris sekali saat saya menyadari fenomena ini.

Mobil-mobil besar nan mahal itu hanya dapat dimiliki oleh orang-orang yang memiliki penghasilan berlebih, sayangnya mereka menyia-nyiakan space mobil mereka yang besar hanya untuk dirinya sendiri. Mobil-mobil yang mahal ini kebanyakan berlalu lalang dengan 2 penumpang (yang sebenarnya mampu menampung hingga 10 orang), bagaimana Jakarta tidak macet kalau fenomena yang terjadi seperti ini? Sedangkan kendaraan roda dua yang sudah ditumpangi oleh lebih dari dua orang saja terus bertambah.

Saya melihat sebuah kejanggalan, sebuah keterbalikan antara pemilik kendaraan bermotor roda empat dan roda dua ini. Bagaimana mengatasi masalah ini? Hanya setiap pribadi dari kita saja yang bisa menjawab. Saat kita sadar, peduli, dan bertindak, maka jawabannya akan positif untuk masa depan hidup seluruh mahkluk hidup.

Stupid Man: "you MUST smoke, it tastes good!"

Smart Man : "i SHOULD smoke to gimme inspiration."

Wise Man   : "i WILL smoke if it could give me a life"


-Cinthya

WATER (Wash Territory)

This picture was taken when I was doing my mid term test for photography subject in Kebun Raya Bogor, Bogor, Indonesia.

Anyway, the reason why I gave "WATER (Wash Territory)" as the title above is because I think water is used for washing. But not only wash clothes, plates, or other, but also 'wash' our body with pure and clean water, even it can 'wash' our mind. Because as I know, mineral water contains of oxygen which can help us to think and work with our brain and body. So yeah, then a word 'WATER' becomes Wash Territory for me :)

And in life, water is one of the most important part. Life without water, can you imagine that? It's just like head without neck, which means you can do nothing without it, it relates the head and our body. Especially in Indonesia, nowadays water isn't treated so well. As we can see that the water is getting turbid, it smells worse, and hard to find pure and clean water. Even everyday I shower, wash clothes, and everything with that kind of water. What a pity!
It's all caused of river, lake, and brook that are filled with trash and waste. Even when people go somewhere by ship, they often throw the trash down into the sea. I believe that basically everyone knows it can make the water gets worse, but they just don't care. Looking around outside, throwing trash becomes one thing that is an ordinary thing to do, and the others who keep the trash until they see the bin are becoming strangers. We can't keep that situation keeps on going like that!

Water really helps everyone to get healthier. The more mineral water we consume, the healthier we'll be. But what if we drink water that smells not good, that is turbid, dark? Can we get healthier? NO! So guys, please keep everything around you well, love the environment just like we love our family, so we can earn clear water, pure mineral water, and of course we'll get a heathy body and great mind to be lived with.

You guys want to live happily, right?
Happiness comes from healthy body.
So keep your body healthy with clean and pure mineral water!


xoxo
_C.

Chasing Dreams

I believe that everyone has their own dreams. Some smells impossible, and some are really make sense to come true. And I also know that everyone has dreams that they wish to make it true. Dreams aren't just ordinary things, but dreams make us alive. Dreams push us to work, dreams push us to study, and of course it pushes us to be on the top! Dreams come not only when we sleep, but also when we open our eyes and look around and 'Shoot, I want to be like her! I want this, I want that in my new house! I wish Brad Pitt could be my husband in the future!'. And all of it, we call it DREAMS!

Gratefully, I have many dreams, I have many obsessions, wishes, and everything to work for to make it true! Once when I was a kid, I never thought about what I would be someday in the future. And every time people asked me: 'What do you want to be in the future?', just like every other kids (that time), then I said: 'Hmm...I want to be a doctor (even I can't stand to see corpse)'. I kept saying that until I found that actually I want to be a catwalk model!haha.. I worked so hard for it! I joined some competitions, and I was accepted, but not until the final, because of my height! :(
Then I realize, it's not my destiny to be a catwalk model. But that the only job that I really want to have! But that's okay, at least I still have many dreams to work for.

I want to be one of the God's soldiers, praise Him, make Him proud to see that a human that He created before becomes somebody now without forgetting Him as her Father. I have a dream to build an orphanage or a social institution to help others. I also want to have a business that can make money but at the same time it helps creating a green earth! I want to be able to play piano, drums, and violin! Going abroad for education is the one that I'm working for! I want to make nothing into something (talking about trash)! As an ordinary girl, having a husband, kids, and a really great family are also some of my dreams. ;)

Some of my dreams above are still possible. Only walking on the catwalk that I don't think I can get it. Even sometimes I want to say, 'I think I'm too late to chase those', but I never really say it. Because something deep inside is stronger, it says, 'Better late than never. Work in faith with Him never ever let you down'. Then I go and chase them! I let Him to come to my life and lead me to walk on His way, so I can get the dreams that I want and He planned before. I'm on my way to catch the light and be on the top!

Wish you guys can get your dreams also! Work hard play hard will be the best quote for it!

xoxo
_C.



P.S. I also have many silly dreams! (e.g. Walking on the red carpet for some awards in America and sit on the front row seat). And by the way, I never think it's impossible, so I'm working for the bucks to fly, walk on the red carpet, take a picture together with my favorites, and watch them in the front row! YAY!

FAO goodwill ambassador Anggun at the MDG summit in New York

Anggun Talk about 1 Billionhungry Project on CNN - 19-9-2010

Righteous One

Talking about religion - I call it faith - The core meaning of it is our own personal relationship with God. None of us have the wisdom to understand which faith is right according to the Lord, so it's kinda sad knowing that some people claim their faith to be the righteous one.

If all of us claim our Lord to be the source of grace, love, kindness, forgiveness, fairness and all, why do we fight with each other to have the best seat? Isn't God the judge?

One can be sitting in the first row, yet God claims this person to be unrighteous. Or one may be sitting quietly alone in the last row and God lift this person up as the righteous of all.

Written by: Sylvia Hardjono

He is ALIVE!

It started when I was in Junior High School. I was staying in my cousin's house for like a week on my holiday. At that time, she was in High School. To be frank, I always want to go to a club (I'm still curious about that place until now). She made a plan to meet some friends (I was the only one who was a 7th grader), they are 3 - 6 years older than me. After we met them, her friend's girlfriend asked us to join her to go to club a night after. My cousin directly said yes for the invitation without thinking that she had to bring me who was about 13 years old that time. They thought it was easy to handle me because there were someone who opened a table on that club. So we came home (my cousin's house) and asked her mom for a permission to stay one day in Puncak (she was lying, we stayed in her friend's house). So yeah, we stayed in her friend's house. They were preparing to go to a club and making me up for the dress, heels, and other to make me looked older than my real age. Along that day, I prayed all the time. I knew I really wanted to feel that place and had something new there, but deep inside my heart, I struggled. I wanted but I prefered to obey to His rules. So I just gave it all back to Him to guide me to His way, I really believed that all will only be the best if we gave it back all to HIM. I prayed at my cousin's friend's house, in the car, on the way, everywhere everytime, even I really wanted to go.
FORTUNATELY, HE GUIDED ME NOT TO GO TO THAT CLUB! :):):)


Since then, I knew that He is ALIVE!
He listened to my prayer, He saved me, He guided me to the best way!


I have another story which happends recently.
I got an accident like 2 months ago. But after like 4 or 5 days later, I got a call from TransTV, and she asked me to go to Trans Studio to talk about something before I was chosen to be one of the actress, it was a really good news for me! But unfortunetly I couldn't walk after the accident, I jumped from one place to another. So my mom wanted to help me to take me to the studio and lean on her to help me to walk in. Since I got the call until that day, I prayed a lot! I did all this thing only because I wanted to have His way and not my way ! I wish I could have what He wanted me to have. If it was the best way for me then I wished He would show me the way, if not then please closed the way! I didn't have any idea how He could close the door or anything, but I just have a faith on Him that He could do anything to show us His way. So the night before the day I should go to Trans Studio, I had some serious fighting with my mother, so that we didn't talk for a while and just passed the time that I should go to Trans Studio. After that, I realized that it wasn't the right time (maybe) or it wasn't my way. And I talked to some friends about the calling from Trans Studio and they were like,"ugh...fortunately you weren't chosen, because if you were, then I don't want to be your friend anymore! I hate artists!", hahaha.. Then I believe it was the really best way! :)


But after like a week or more, I got an e-mail from Global Citizen Corps (Mercy Corps). I still couldn't walk that time. Right after I got it, I prayed, I told my brother but I didn't tell my parents yet. Until I was so sure about that, then I told them. (again and again) I prayed everytime and wished I could follow His paths for my life. Whatever would happend that time, I just knew that everything had been planned by Him. Day after day had passed, but my leg wasn't getting so much better, I was doubting that I could walk on the day I should have a camp. :(
After my parents had known about that event, they were worried about GCC and my leg, they didn't let me to go. But I asked a favor to my brother. I asked him to pursue my parents to allow me to go. I worked on it, but I didn't want to force, because I didn't want to break His plans for my life. At the end, I was allowed to go, my leg was getting better, and I really believed it was my destiny from Him. Everyone can say that I'm not qualified enough to be one of GCC Leaders, but  not only GCC who chose me, but I believe He chose me too. :)


What I want to tell you all here is that HE IS REALLY ALIVE! You just need to talk more to Him, have more heart-to-heart time with Him, faith in Him, believe that everything will be so fine as long as you walk on His paths! :)




ABOVE ALL PRAISE YOU LORD!
GLORY TO YOU!


xxx
GBU
_C.

God Allows The Pain

Someday, there's a man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about so many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of GOD, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists". "Why do you say that?" asked the customer. "Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exist, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things." The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.

The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barbe,"You know what? Barbers don't exist.". "How can you say that?", asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!". "NO!", the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with the dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside".

"Ah, but the barbers DO exist! That's what happens when people do not come to me.", said the barber. "Exactly". affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! That's what happens when people do not go to Him and don't look to Him for help. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

Ego Business in Indonesia

Kadang saya ga ngerti mesti ngerasa sedih, bangga, kecewa, marah, senang, atau apa sama negara Indonesia ini. Selain dari kemacetan yang ga ada habisnya justru makin macet sampai mall yang ada di setiap sisi dari Jakarta, oh nooo!!! :'(


Sekarang juga bisa kita liat, dimana - mana ada yang namanya mini market A-mart dan I-mart (disembunyikan namanya).  Ini saya sebut ego dalam berbisnis yang ga pake etika! Semua harus ada aturan main! Ga bisa sesukanya bangun mini market itu dimana - mana. Bagaimana nasib para pasar tradisional, mini market kecil yang belum punya nama, habis lah mereka! Yang dipikirin orang - orang cuma kesejahteraan pribadi. Terutama di Indonesia ini, aturan pemerintah sekarang seakan - akan cuma memperkaya orang kaya. Dari mulai gaji pemerintah yang naik sampai untuk urusan aturan pembangunan seperti ini. Pemerintah yang sudah kaya gaji dinaikin menjadi makin kaya, tapi soal orang - orang yang kekurangan sama sekali tidak ada bantuan yang berjalan, hanya sekedar iming - iming yang lewat begitu saja. Orang yang memiliki mini market yang tersebut diatas sudah bisa saya jamin mereka ada orang - orang yang bisa dikatakan berhasil dalam berbisnis, mereka bukanlah orang - orang yang kekurangan bahkan bisa saya sebut bahwa mereka itu KAYA, dan bisnis mereka diperlancar dengan tidak adanya aturan pembangunan mengenai mini market tersebut. Dalam satu wilayah kecil bisa memiliki lebih dari 5 mini market tersebut, apa namanya kalau bukan menutup jalan orang - orang yang kurang mampu?! Kalau begini terus, saya yakin di akhir kehidupan orang - orang, yang akan bertahan hanya lah orang - orang yang memikirkan 'nafsu' nya sendiri dalam berbisnis. Bahkan saat saya ingin membeli sesuatu, saya sampai tidak mengerti harus ke mini market yang mana, saking banyaknya mini market itu disekitar lingkungan saya.
Memang tidak saya pungkiri itu membuat masyarakat lebih mudah mendapatkan apa yang mereka mau, tapi coba dipikirkan lagi, lebih penting ke instant-an hidup rakyat atau kesejahteraan rakyat? Justru dengan mempermudah segala hal, itu akan membuat rakyat manja. Kalau tidak bisa membuat aturan main sendiri di Indonesia untuk mensejahterakan rakyat, conteklah aturan negara maju lainnya, at least aturan main mereka lebih baik, walau kita ambil dengan cara mencontek. Saya 'gerah' dengan keadaan negara tempat saya berdomisili! :(


Kalau saja saya punya satu kali saja kesempatan untuk bertemu dengan para petinggi negara ini, saya tidak akan takut untuk menumpahkan ini semua! Toh apa yang saya katakan untuk kesejahteraan negara ini. Katanya ini negara demokrat, tapi aspirasi rakyat jarang ada yang diperhatikan. Saya sampai TIDAK berani berkata bahwa SAYA CINTA INDONESIA.