Waiting for An Empty Hope

Peeking through the window and hoping somehow you suddenly could appear from somewhere in front of nowhere just to meet up. Hoping that you would go back and waiting for you to be back even you have gone away after a fight. Hoping that someday you would understand that sometimes a 'NO' means 'Show me more willingness for that'. Checking out the blog that you made, and hoping that somehow it is updated and you write about the love you have for me.
And everytime I turn back, I hope that you would be just behind me, because you would never leave me, but you leave. Everytime we have a fight, I hope you would chase me, but you leave. I hope you would just surprise me by bringing things I like even when I say 'NO', but you don't. And everytime you still have an opportunity to fix things before the time goes, I hope you would make it up, but you don't and you just give up.
Finally, I realize that I have been waiting for an empty hope. You will never understand. Even somehow I still wish that it were all wrong, but unfortunately it's all true.

Decide NOW!

As the time is going, the wheel is turning, a foot can't stop taking steps. Life won't stop even when you pause to take a step. There is always a risk in deciding what to do when the clock is still ticking. There is a risk and taking a step forward, there is a risk in taking a step back, and also there is a risk when you even stop taking a step for a while. Whatever the risk is, you need to decide what to do in your life.

Deciding equals 50% possibility to the safe part and 50% possibility to the unsafe one. To increase the percentage of possibility to the safe part, we need to go through a long process in understanding the environment. We need to recognize and understand where we live, what kind of place that is, who the people around are, what type of people they are, what things are there around us, and so on and so on, as many information as we can get. That long process doesn't need the formal research, only being sensitive with what's going on around.

Until then, you can predict more about what will happen if you do this, what will happen if you do that. What risk will you get, what chance you will have, and so on. And ta-daaaa, you can decide what to do now!

Simple theory!

Have fun with your life, folks!

Get in Life and Live in It!

Life exists to let us see the existence of love and let us be the part of it

When life drags you to the hard time, just give it a SMILE.

If you can't define life, you can't move forward to one door out of 100 doors in front of you.

 Life doesn't start once you breath, it starts right at the second you realize that you are ALIVE.

 Nothing and no one can give you a life, but yourself.

The Voice of The (H)eart(h)

Like you want me to keep you safe under the roof, with enough food and tools to live, I also want you to watch me, to understand what I need.

But you are there to complete my needs. I need to live happily and instantly, so I need you to complete my robots, factories, and all technologies that can support what I do.

We all have got limitation, that’s why you and I exist, we are supposed to support each other, we need each other. You can’t ask me to support you endlessly, when you don’t support my life.

So how can I complete my needs?! Every single little thing that sticks to my life is consisted by you. What I wear, what I eat, drink, and everything can affect your life. I’m sorry but I need it to continue my life.

That’s why I exist, to help you complete your life. But when the effect happens to my life, sorry to say, but it will affect your life too. When I don’t have trees, water, your life will be as miserable as I am. You won’t have good air to breath, clear water to consume, you won’t even live in a good weather. In the end, you are dying with the unhealthy life and circumstances.

Pick the way of your life! Choose the one that you think will be good for you today and the future, you don’t live only for a day, but for a long time, and you don’t live alone, but you’ve got friends and families that you should think about. You decide...

He is ALIVE!

It started when I was in Junior High School. I was staying in my cousin's house for like a week on my holiday. At that time, she was in High School. To be frank, I always want to go to a club (I'm still curious about that place until now). She made a plan to meet some friends (I was the only one who was a 7th grader), they are 3 - 6 years older than me. After we met them, her friend's girlfriend asked us to join her to go to club a night after. My cousin directly said yes for the invitation without thinking that she had to bring me who was about 13 years old that time. They thought it was easy to handle me because there were someone who opened a table on that club. So we came home (my cousin's house) and asked her mom for a permission to stay one day in Puncak (she was lying, we stayed in her friend's house). So yeah, we stayed in her friend's house. They were preparing to go to a club and making me up for the dress, heels, and other to make me looked older than my real age. Along that day, I prayed all the time. I knew I really wanted to feel that place and had something new there, but deep inside my heart, I struggled. I wanted but I prefered to obey to His rules. So I just gave it all back to Him to guide me to His way, I really believed that all will only be the best if we gave it back all to HIM. I prayed at my cousin's friend's house, in the car, on the way, everywhere everytime, even I really wanted to go.
FORTUNATELY, HE GUIDED ME NOT TO GO TO THAT CLUB! :):):)


Since then, I knew that He is ALIVE!
He listened to my prayer, He saved me, He guided me to the best way!


I have another story which happends recently.
I got an accident like 2 months ago. But after like 4 or 5 days later, I got a call from TransTV, and she asked me to go to Trans Studio to talk about something before I was chosen to be one of the actress, it was a really good news for me! But unfortunetly I couldn't walk after the accident, I jumped from one place to another. So my mom wanted to help me to take me to the studio and lean on her to help me to walk in. Since I got the call until that day, I prayed a lot! I did all this thing only because I wanted to have His way and not my way ! I wish I could have what He wanted me to have. If it was the best way for me then I wished He would show me the way, if not then please closed the way! I didn't have any idea how He could close the door or anything, but I just have a faith on Him that He could do anything to show us His way. So the night before the day I should go to Trans Studio, I had some serious fighting with my mother, so that we didn't talk for a while and just passed the time that I should go to Trans Studio. After that, I realized that it wasn't the right time (maybe) or it wasn't my way. And I talked to some friends about the calling from Trans Studio and they were like,"ugh...fortunately you weren't chosen, because if you were, then I don't want to be your friend anymore! I hate artists!", hahaha.. Then I believe it was the really best way! :)


But after like a week or more, I got an e-mail from Global Citizen Corps (Mercy Corps). I still couldn't walk that time. Right after I got it, I prayed, I told my brother but I didn't tell my parents yet. Until I was so sure about that, then I told them. (again and again) I prayed everytime and wished I could follow His paths for my life. Whatever would happend that time, I just knew that everything had been planned by Him. Day after day had passed, but my leg wasn't getting so much better, I was doubting that I could walk on the day I should have a camp. :(
After my parents had known about that event, they were worried about GCC and my leg, they didn't let me to go. But I asked a favor to my brother. I asked him to pursue my parents to allow me to go. I worked on it, but I didn't want to force, because I didn't want to break His plans for my life. At the end, I was allowed to go, my leg was getting better, and I really believed it was my destiny from Him. Everyone can say that I'm not qualified enough to be one of GCC Leaders, but  not only GCC who chose me, but I believe He chose me too. :)


What I want to tell you all here is that HE IS REALLY ALIVE! You just need to talk more to Him, have more heart-to-heart time with Him, faith in Him, believe that everything will be so fine as long as you walk on His paths! :)




ABOVE ALL PRAISE YOU LORD!
GLORY TO YOU!


xxx
GBU
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