Waiting for An Empty Hope

Peeking through the window and hoping somehow you suddenly could appear from somewhere in front of nowhere just to meet up. Hoping that you would go back and waiting for you to be back even you have gone away after a fight. Hoping that someday you would understand that sometimes a 'NO' means 'Show me more willingness for that'. Checking out the blog that you made, and hoping that somehow it is updated and you write about the love you have for me.
And everytime I turn back, I hope that you would be just behind me, because you would never leave me, but you leave. Everytime we have a fight, I hope you would chase me, but you leave. I hope you would just surprise me by bringing things I like even when I say 'NO', but you don't. And everytime you still have an opportunity to fix things before the time goes, I hope you would make it up, but you don't and you just give up.
Finally, I realize that I have been waiting for an empty hope. You will never understand. Even somehow I still wish that it were all wrong, but unfortunately it's all true.