Waiting for An Empty Hope

Peeking through the window and hoping somehow you suddenly could appear from somewhere in front of nowhere just to meet up. Hoping that you would go back and waiting for you to be back even you have gone away after a fight. Hoping that someday you would understand that sometimes a 'NO' means 'Show me more willingness for that'. Checking out the blog that you made, and hoping that somehow it is updated and you write about the love you have for me.
And everytime I turn back, I hope that you would be just behind me, because you would never leave me, but you leave. Everytime we have a fight, I hope you would chase me, but you leave. I hope you would just surprise me by bringing things I like even when I say 'NO', but you don't. And everytime you still have an opportunity to fix things before the time goes, I hope you would make it up, but you don't and you just give up.
Finally, I realize that I have been waiting for an empty hope. You will never understand. Even somehow I still wish that it were all wrong, but unfortunately it's all true.

Decide NOW!

As the time is going, the wheel is turning, a foot can't stop taking steps. Life won't stop even when you pause to take a step. There is always a risk in deciding what to do when the clock is still ticking. There is a risk and taking a step forward, there is a risk in taking a step back, and also there is a risk when you even stop taking a step for a while. Whatever the risk is, you need to decide what to do in your life.

Deciding equals 50% possibility to the safe part and 50% possibility to the unsafe one. To increase the percentage of possibility to the safe part, we need to go through a long process in understanding the environment. We need to recognize and understand where we live, what kind of place that is, who the people around are, what type of people they are, what things are there around us, and so on and so on, as many information as we can get. That long process doesn't need the formal research, only being sensitive with what's going on around.

Until then, you can predict more about what will happen if you do this, what will happen if you do that. What risk will you get, what chance you will have, and so on. And ta-daaaa, you can decide what to do now!

Simple theory!

Have fun with your life, folks!

Get in Life and Live in It!

Life exists to let us see the existence of love and let us be the part of it

When life drags you to the hard time, just give it a SMILE.

If you can't define life, you can't move forward to one door out of 100 doors in front of you.

 Life doesn't start once you breath, it starts right at the second you realize that you are ALIVE.

 Nothing and no one can give you a life, but yourself.

Happiness :)

No matter how many seasons we have, no matter what good weather is, where I was born, who my family is, who my friends are, well happiness is always around, and I’ve got reasons to be happy.

            I don’t need to choose one best season, one best place for vacation, one person to make me smile, nor to choose one reason to make me happy. I decided to be happy in any situations, places, with anyone, in anytime, because I deserve happiness!

            Happiness is there for those who want to be happy. Sometimes when things don’t go the way we want, people most likely get disappointed. And once that thing happens to me, I always try to think or to feel another blessings, another good things that I have, which I should be grateful for, and yes, there it is, that is how I earn my happiness. The disappointment isn’t easily fading away, but I won’t think much about that when I’m happy.

Love isn’t really the theme I like to write, it’s just a feeling I like to have. But as I’ve just jumped to the age of 20s, so I started thinking about the real relationship, the real feeling to have, the real man to face life together.

I always think that a word ‘LOVE’ is sacred. It can’t be mentioned to everyone. But the truth is, that sacred word is often mentioned, mostly woman-to-woman, which I also do. Because that’s been happening in my life, so I decided to keep that word away when I really feel that way to a man. Simply, when I mention that word a lot to a man, it doesn’t mean what that word really means, on the contrary, when I rarely mention the ‘L’ word, it means that once I mention it, I really do mean it.

For more than 20 years I’ve been breathing, seeing people bump around, hearing good and bad things, but I only have ever fallen in love ONCE! The feeling had been there for like about 3 years, but the relationship ended up after 3 weeks being together. Since then, I’m kinda afraid of falling in love. Being suspicious is who I am now. It’s like, I don’t believe any men who would possibly be really in love with me like I am to one of them. Sounds desperate, huh? But I’m not.

But I also admit that I lost 3 puzzles in life. One is faith. And the others are to love and being loved. I know that those puzzles are there, I just need time to seek them to complete my life.

The Voice of The (H)eart(h)

Like you want me to keep you safe under the roof, with enough food and tools to live, I also want you to watch me, to understand what I need.

But you are there to complete my needs. I need to live happily and instantly, so I need you to complete my robots, factories, and all technologies that can support what I do.

We all have got limitation, that’s why you and I exist, we are supposed to support each other, we need each other. You can’t ask me to support you endlessly, when you don’t support my life.

So how can I complete my needs?! Every single little thing that sticks to my life is consisted by you. What I wear, what I eat, drink, and everything can affect your life. I’m sorry but I need it to continue my life.

That’s why I exist, to help you complete your life. But when the effect happens to my life, sorry to say, but it will affect your life too. When I don’t have trees, water, your life will be as miserable as I am. You won’t have good air to breath, clear water to consume, you won’t even live in a good weather. In the end, you are dying with the unhealthy life and circumstances.

Pick the way of your life! Choose the one that you think will be good for you today and the future, you don’t live only for a day, but for a long time, and you don’t live alone, but you’ve got friends and families that you should think about. You decide...