Waiting for An Empty Hope

Peeking through the window and hoping somehow you suddenly could appear from somewhere in front of nowhere just to meet up. Hoping that you would go back and waiting for you to be back even you have gone away after a fight. Hoping that someday you would understand that sometimes a 'NO' means 'Show me more willingness for that'. Checking out the blog that you made, and hoping that somehow it is updated and you write about the love you have for me.
And everytime I turn back, I hope that you would be just behind me, because you would never leave me, but you leave. Everytime we have a fight, I hope you would chase me, but you leave. I hope you would just surprise me by bringing things I like even when I say 'NO', but you don't. And everytime you still have an opportunity to fix things before the time goes, I hope you would make it up, but you don't and you just give up.
Finally, I realize that I have been waiting for an empty hope. You will never understand. Even somehow I still wish that it were all wrong, but unfortunately it's all true.

Decide NOW!

As the time is going, the wheel is turning, a foot can't stop taking steps. Life won't stop even when you pause to take a step. There is always a risk in deciding what to do when the clock is still ticking. There is a risk and taking a step forward, there is a risk in taking a step back, and also there is a risk when you even stop taking a step for a while. Whatever the risk is, you need to decide what to do in your life.

Deciding equals 50% possibility to the safe part and 50% possibility to the unsafe one. To increase the percentage of possibility to the safe part, we need to go through a long process in understanding the environment. We need to recognize and understand where we live, what kind of place that is, who the people around are, what type of people they are, what things are there around us, and so on and so on, as many information as we can get. That long process doesn't need the formal research, only being sensitive with what's going on around.

Until then, you can predict more about what will happen if you do this, what will happen if you do that. What risk will you get, what chance you will have, and so on. And ta-daaaa, you can decide what to do now!

Simple theory!

Have fun with your life, folks!

Get in Life and Live in It!

Life exists to let us see the existence of love and let us be the part of it

When life drags you to the hard time, just give it a SMILE.

If you can't define life, you can't move forward to one door out of 100 doors in front of you.

 Life doesn't start once you breath, it starts right at the second you realize that you are ALIVE.

 Nothing and no one can give you a life, but yourself.

Happiness :)

No matter how many seasons we have, no matter what good weather is, where I was born, who my family is, who my friends are, well happiness is always around, and I’ve got reasons to be happy.

            I don’t need to choose one best season, one best place for vacation, one person to make me smile, nor to choose one reason to make me happy. I decided to be happy in any situations, places, with anyone, in anytime, because I deserve happiness!

            Happiness is there for those who want to be happy. Sometimes when things don’t go the way we want, people most likely get disappointed. And once that thing happens to me, I always try to think or to feel another blessings, another good things that I have, which I should be grateful for, and yes, there it is, that is how I earn my happiness. The disappointment isn’t easily fading away, but I won’t think much about that when I’m happy.

Love isn’t really the theme I like to write, it’s just a feeling I like to have. But as I’ve just jumped to the age of 20s, so I started thinking about the real relationship, the real feeling to have, the real man to face life together.

I always think that a word ‘LOVE’ is sacred. It can’t be mentioned to everyone. But the truth is, that sacred word is often mentioned, mostly woman-to-woman, which I also do. Because that’s been happening in my life, so I decided to keep that word away when I really feel that way to a man. Simply, when I mention that word a lot to a man, it doesn’t mean what that word really means, on the contrary, when I rarely mention the ‘L’ word, it means that once I mention it, I really do mean it.

For more than 20 years I’ve been breathing, seeing people bump around, hearing good and bad things, but I only have ever fallen in love ONCE! The feeling had been there for like about 3 years, but the relationship ended up after 3 weeks being together. Since then, I’m kinda afraid of falling in love. Being suspicious is who I am now. It’s like, I don’t believe any men who would possibly be really in love with me like I am to one of them. Sounds desperate, huh? But I’m not.

But I also admit that I lost 3 puzzles in life. One is faith. And the others are to love and being loved. I know that those puzzles are there, I just need time to seek them to complete my life.