Happiness :)

No matter how many seasons we have, no matter what good weather is, where I was born, who my family is, who my friends are, well happiness is always around, and I’ve got reasons to be happy.

            I don’t need to choose one best season, one best place for vacation, one person to make me smile, nor to choose one reason to make me happy. I decided to be happy in any situations, places, with anyone, in anytime, because I deserve happiness!

            Happiness is there for those who want to be happy. Sometimes when things don’t go the way we want, people most likely get disappointed. And once that thing happens to me, I always try to think or to feel another blessings, another good things that I have, which I should be grateful for, and yes, there it is, that is how I earn my happiness. The disappointment isn’t easily fading away, but I won’t think much about that when I’m happy.

Love isn’t really the theme I like to write, it’s just a feeling I like to have. But as I’ve just jumped to the age of 20s, so I started thinking about the real relationship, the real feeling to have, the real man to face life together.

I always think that a word ‘LOVE’ is sacred. It can’t be mentioned to everyone. But the truth is, that sacred word is often mentioned, mostly woman-to-woman, which I also do. Because that’s been happening in my life, so I decided to keep that word away when I really feel that way to a man. Simply, when I mention that word a lot to a man, it doesn’t mean what that word really means, on the contrary, when I rarely mention the ‘L’ word, it means that once I mention it, I really do mean it.

For more than 20 years I’ve been breathing, seeing people bump around, hearing good and bad things, but I only have ever fallen in love ONCE! The feeling had been there for like about 3 years, but the relationship ended up after 3 weeks being together. Since then, I’m kinda afraid of falling in love. Being suspicious is who I am now. It’s like, I don’t believe any men who would possibly be really in love with me like I am to one of them. Sounds desperate, huh? But I’m not.

But I also admit that I lost 3 puzzles in life. One is faith. And the others are to love and being loved. I know that those puzzles are there, I just need time to seek them to complete my life.